Day 94: Change Is Coming … Oh Wait, It’s Already Here

I feel like I’m on a bit of a roller-coaster at the moment.

We’ve just purchased a house and settlement is still a month away. The house we’re in needs cleaning and that feels like a mammoth task. It’s a big house and I work full time so that’s a real issue for me to find the time to do it.

I’m working on this business, and at the moment I feel stuck. I’m not sure how to proceed so I’m basically going around in circles.

I’ve gained quite a lot of weight in the last few months and I feel uncomfortable, unfit and my clothes don’t fit properly. I just don’t like it but I’m quite at a loss what to do about it. I making a real point of exercising regularly.

My relationship with my partner and my children is evolving. We’re all going through changes right now. My children are both looking for work and of “an age” where lots of changes are happening anyway.

Plus I’ve only been at my job for just over two months and I’m still finding my place in the team.

It’s a lot of change. All at once and I feel alternately uncomfortable, stressed, happy, excited, scared witless and sometimes just plain tired.

It’s a roller-coaster. Really all I can do is just hold on and go with it.

I am spending less time working on my business, and more sorting the move, and now its time for me to let go of the guilt about that. This project is enormously important to me. But then so is the need to feel in charge of the situation and right now I feel like there is so much cleaning, packing and so on to do that I cannot possibly hope to get it all done. So … my time in the morning for the next few days anyway, will be spent doing things that I need to do at home to get that sense of control back. I accept this and that it cuts into my business time.

It’s frustrating. But seriously I’ve been dragging my feet about getting involved in another task anyway.

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