I’ve been following an exercise program for the last four days and already I’m checking to see if I’ve lost weight.
And annoying to see how completely the diet rhetoric colours every thought about food and movement.
Deep breath. Let it go.
Clearly overcoming the diet mentality is going to take some time.
Meanwhile, I have not lost weight from exercising three times in a row. It didn’t happen.
I am not going to get fatter if I eat this banana bread. Yes, even if I have three slices because it’s so good. Yes, even with butter.
Yes I have a fat belly. OK, it’s there, and OK, I really rather wish that it wasn’t, but it is there and I love me just the same. Fat belly and all. Yes including my thunder thighs and jiggly arms that never seem to fit comfortably into clothes.
All of it.
This is my life now Lisa. I’m going to eat in ways that support me, even if the support I want right now is the freedom to eat banana bread for dinner. I’m seeing myself as I really am, and more importantly, accepting me as I really am. I’m exercising to make me stronger, not to lose weight.
I’m sorry for the death of your fantasy, but this is more important.
This, right here, right now, this, this is your life.
Quit being so obsessed and dramatic all the time and Let. It. Go.
You’re beautiful. You’re doing the right thing. It’s not easy but keep going and try to have some fun.
Also, the banana bread was fantastic!