I spent the weekend with my mother and my partner. We did fun things like go to the market, drive in the country, the movies and walking on the beach. It was a great weekend that I really enjoyed. I didn’t do any work though, other than being happy.

I’ve been fairly sad and lonely over this last few days and, though it’s been unpleasant, it’s also been really useful. I hate when I end up feeling that way so whenever I do I take steps to get over it. One of the things I did this time was write. Sure it was mostly [...]

Monday night I took it upon myself to give up sleeping. I’ve had about five hours sleep over  the last three nights and am so exhausted it’s taking all my energy just to function. I’m so exhausted. Woe is me!

My partner started night shift this week and the end result for me is that I can’t sleep. The results were pretty predictable and by Wednesday I was pretty shattered. I decided that the best route forward was to expend more energy and try and get organised for next week. Also predictable my energy levels [...]

Sometimes I get all sad and lonely and full of despair. Being a person that likes to address the issues the next question is OK, what am I going to do differently? What am I going to change? Where would I like to end up? And the reality is this is exactly where I want [...]

I can’t help but think I’m as effectual as a priest in whorehouse. I just can’t seem to get anything happening. In some ways I feel as if my life has become an endless round of work and chores. Simply put, I am not having enough fun. Easter weekend is looming, one of the biggest [...]

I am totally shagged, which is a local phrase which in this instance means very tired. I’ve done little today except sit around and, um, do little. I had an engagement party that I attended in the evening and stuff like that always makes me anxious. And when I get anxious I eat. Then I [...]

I made up with my partner today. We’d been … well not fighting exactly, because seriously, you need to be talking to fight, and we weren’t. I tell him that’s how it goes; I need to discuss to clear the air. He prefers to just ignore everything and hope it goes away. It is a [...]

I’m slowly getting back into a happier groove. It’s the little things that make the difference. Like visualizing,  which I do any way but if I don’t direct my thoughts it becomes worrying. Taking some time to arrest my thoughts and redirect to a better place is a good thing. Plus, I’m working again. I [...]

I’ve just got started on a new project. We are landscaping the yard of our house. We want to put in a carport and shed, a deck, retaining walls, gardens and fence the whole lot. It will turn what’s essentially a useless yard into something actually quite beautiful. Well that’s the plan anyway. Today I [...]