Day 28: House Hunting

I have always dreamed of owning my own home, but for the longest time that’s what it was – a dream.

I had children when I was young – 22 and 23 – and then promptly ended up by myself with two babies. I’ve spent much of the last 18 years juggling the need to earn an income and be available for my children. We’ve had a good life but there’s never been a lot of disposable cash. Certainly not enough for a deposit on a home.

Now all of a sudden I’m partnered with a wonderful man, my children are almost grown and I’m house hunting.

I keep waiting for the “bad thing” to happen, you know, the thing that kills the dream right before I manage to achieve it.

This time it won’t though, because this time I realise that getting what I want, succeeding, moving forward if you like is not a result of hard work or good luck. It’s the end result of visualising your dream, believing you can have it, planning a way for it to happen and taking action.

It takes the whole “I don’t deserve this” out of the equation. Worthiness has nothing to do with it.

It’s really just a question of persistence.

It bodes well for this project. In the meantime – house hunting – me!

Awesome.