Sometimes I can actually feel myself changing.
At least that’s what I think it is.
For no particular reason I’ll suddenly feel tearful and overwhelmed. It happens in a flash and then it’s gone. It’s as if everything in my world is adrift and I’m not sure what’s going to happen next.
In the past I’ve always been quite clear that this is a BAD thing.
But now I’m not so sure.
Why do I need to know what’s going to happen next?
And what if what happens next is something wonderful, like hooking up with my partner.
I think this is a good emotion and I should get very excited when I feel it. I think it means something is going to happen. It may not be today, or maybe it will and I won’t attach any significance to it. But it is going to happen.
And where it goes comes back to the question of focus.
Often I’ll feel a generalised feeling of dread, usually because I don’t know what’s going to happen next and I’m scared that I won’t be able to cope.
Instead if i let the dread become excitement and think of all the wonderful things that could happen perhaps I’ll attract some of those wonderful things into my life.
So … three things that could happen?
1) I could find a $50 note on the ground
2) I could receive a link to a supplier with great clothes at reasonable prices
3) I could find an incredible bargain on an amazing piece of vintage clothing, that just happens to fit like a glove.
Ooh … I like this game.
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