I want to tell you a story, or more importantly remind myself of a story.
In November 2006 my best friend gave me a DVD to watch – The Secret.
For me it was the key that I had been looking for. I was trying to move forward and had reached the point where I knew it was something that I was doing that was limiting me, but I just couldn’t work out what.
It was a profound experience for me. I couldn’t even watch the whole movie the first time because it resonated so strongly.
It led to me thinking about what it was that I really wanted.
It turns out I was pretty clear, and had been for a long time, but also very wary because no matter what I’d done in the past it didn’t seem to be bringing me closer to achieving what I wanted. I was constantly frustrated and disappointed.
Now there were lots of things in there like travel, owning a home, being fabulously wealthy, having a killer wardrobe and falling in love.
OK, I was clear; ready, set, visualise!
When I visualised it became increasingly clear that what I really wanted, really, really, was to be in a relationship. Actually to be married. At this stage I’d been single for about 15 years. I’d long ago given up on the prospect of being in love with someone I really trusted and wanted to build a life with.
But the dream persisted and though I tried to focus on work and money and clothes it came up over and over again. I wanted with all my heart to be with someone.
So I stopped fighting it and started visualising how it could really be.
All through 2007 I would go to the beach, walk along the beach and fantasize about how it would be to be in love, to be loved and cared for, to have a partner. And trust me, for someone single as long as me it was a bit of a stretch.
Things changed in my life, as they do, but nothing really startling or different. Nothing I even thought twice about. But now I see that things were re-arranging themselves to give me what I wanted. The visualisation made me happy and though dating wasn’t so great I did have breakthroughs in other areas. I traveled to Sydney and Thailand. I started my first blog, but mostly I just kept doing what I was doing. I just felt happier.
Then, in early December 2008 my world shifted on it’s axis. My partner just exploded into my life in the most unexpected of ways. And from the very beginning it was really clear that this was exactly what I’d been dreaming of. I freaked the hell out of me.
Now, fourteen months on I feel happy and so in love and I’m planning and building a life with this person.
I think about the time I’m spending now, visualising my business and working in a way that seems aimless to me, but I know that somewhere in the background things are shifting and re-arranging to bring me what I want.
And in the meantime – I’ve having lots of fun just fantasizing about it.
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