My partner started night shift this week and the end result for me is that I can’t sleep. The results were pretty predictable and by Wednesday I was pretty shattered.
I decided that the best route forward was to expend more energy and try and get organised for next week.
Also predictable my energy levels expired fairly early into the holiday and now I have an even bigger mess than I started with.
But … I did manage to catch up on my sleep, spend some time with my partner and generally de-stress. In fact last night I felt great.
It’s a shame he then went to work, woke me up when he came home and I had a great deal of difficulty going back to sleep for more than an hour or so at a time. I feel fairly tired.
This whole weekend has highlighted for me the problems I’m having with timing and motivation.
I haven’t done any sort of cohesive exercise for months and I strongly feel the results of that. I’ve gained weight and I feel heavy and lethargic.
I’m very stressed and unhappy a lot of the time – not majorly but the underlying feeling is frustration.
The biggest frustration is of course is this project. It feels so out of my reach.
Again it comes back to some simple steps – gratitude for what I have, visualizing what I want, taking whatever steps that I can toward my goals and then letting it go and being happy with my day to day life.
So that said, I’m going to go and do something that I’ve been putting off all weekend because having it done will make me feel 100% better about my day.
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