Well it’s been quite some time since I wrote or even thought about writing in here. Over 60 days. And seriously I haven’t been writing because I haven’t been thinking about it, or at least only peripherally.
And you know what. I’m really glad for the break. I was pretty much lost. In some ways I still am.
I find the grind of an eight hour day difficult to deal with. Adding in expectations like this makes my life much more stressful and frankly that is not a place to create anything from.
I didn’t stop because I realised I needed some space though.
I stopped because my private life suddenly imploded. I was very unhappy for quite some time.
What I’ve been doing to turn that around is visualize. By focusing on what it is that I want rather than how miserable things have been I’ve turned things around again. I’ve also realised something quite profound. If I’m not enjoying it I’m not doing it right.
So here I am again thinking about the project. Thinking about the vehicle www.bodyshapestyle.com. I’m not altogether sure what I think about it but I do this sense of need to finish things off. Quite what that means I don’t know.
My dreams haven’t changed. In my visualisations (fantasies?) I work for myself from home doing things that I enjoy and making lots of money from it. I travel regularly and own my own home. I am financially free.
It’s only how I envision that happening that’s changed. In fact I’ve basically stopped visualising the how altogether. I don’t think its actually helpful for me.
So, now what? Keep visualising. Release the stress and pressure of it all and enjoy my amazing life.
I just recently moved and my new room has no wiodnws, so there’s ZERO light all night. Needless to say I had a wicked sleep. Also, as you noted, I have a bedtime routine which includes using a sauna (I’m fortunate enough to have one) and listening to guided meditations and relaxations on youtube. Great tips!