I’m feeling pensive and frustrated and generally not very happy or communicative today so it’s a bit of a challenge to write a blog post. I feel like a failure. I feel sad about being so different from mainstream society. I feel overwhelmed with the challenges ahead of me and just basically too ineffectual to move forward. I feel bad. And that’s not cool. I definitely don’t want to write about and give more energy to those feelings. So what to do?
I was thinking yesterday, wondering really, why I felt the need to do this Noblopomo challenge in the first place. It’s not like I don’t have a million other things to work on in the short space of time that I have available each day. I’m trying to build an online business here, and I have a website, www.bodyshapestyle.com, that has traffic and page rank and is my most likely shot to actually start generating some real income. Yet here I am. Again.
At the moment I’m subscribed to Six Minutes To Success coaching program with Bob Proctor and one of the things it inspired me to do was make a committment to moving toward my goals; specifically in my case I want to be a successful blogger. Of course it’s only after I phrased it like that I realised I already am a successful blogger, see the above mentioned blog. What I really mean is I want to use writing to build multiple streams of income that replace my job income allowing me to give up full time work and travel the world. Simple really.
I’m watching the videos on the site and doing the exercises. I’m feeling confident and engaged; hopeful even. And then instead of making changes on my existing site I end up writing here. True I’m cross posting on www.lisarutland.com but even that seems like such a strange thing to do.
I’m just going with it. That’s the whole point of visualising and taking action. Hold the idea of where you want to go in your mind. Connect with that idea, really get into the emotional feeling place of how that would be, see yourself there and doing the things that you want and imagine how great that would feel. Then take action toward that goal. Whatever you’re inspired to do.
From the coaching I’ve taken the necessity to make a plan. Just having an idea and visualising is not enough; you must take action and if you’re taking action then having a plan is your best shot at accumulating positive action in a focused direction.
The problem I have with that is you just never know how things are going to work out. For instance, I’m in a relationship with a man I adore. I really wanted to be in a relationship and spent a lot of time visualising how I would like it to be. And I took action toward meeting someone. But I never, ever would have thought that I would form a relationship how and when and with whom I did. It was just so unexpected
That’s why I’m just going with the idea of writing here. It’s what I feel moved to do. I can’t see any particular value in it, other than me getting some stuff out, but that’s what I’m doing. The plan I made is not happening though and that’s concerning me. In fact it’s really quite upsetting me and making me feel pensive and sad.
In the words of Bob Proctor (and I’m paraphrasing): If you have a goal, and make a plan, and take action towards achieving that plan and it still doesn’t work, it’s not the goal that is wrong. It’s the plan. Make another plan and keep taking action. Keep seeing yourself achieving your goal and keep taking action
I don’t have another plan right now so instead what I’m going to spend some time visualising my goal coming true and then I’m going to relax and enjoy my day as best I can. Life is meant to be fun and if I’m feeling down so I’m going to try to have some fun. And visualising is still taking action; its keeping the destination at the forefront of my mind.
The other thing about visualisation; if the goal or dream is what you really, really want, it feels amazingly good to imagine yourself achieving it.
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