A New Year: A Not So New Me

After so many years launching a diet on New Years Day is just habit for me now. And I got to say, this year is no different. There’s just something about the potential of a new year that makes me want to start as I mean to go on and take that shot to finally live the dream.

I know. It’s painful. I shake my head as I type it. Such silly buzzword ridden rubbish. I just can’t seem to help myself though.

The problem lies in my dreams. I want to be rich. I want to work from home, preferably writing, definitely adding as much value to as many people as I possibly can whilst simultaneously making gobs and gobs of money. I blame the self-help industry for this. Here I am hopelessly dedicated to following a dream that may never come true all because a bunch of gurus told me it was possible.

It sounds suspiciously like that diet guru nonsense and look how that turned out.

So now I find myself unemployed, trying to build a business from nothing with no capital and no savings. It’s laughable. 

And kind of fun too.

Well, right up until I have a panic attack, which pretty much happened yesterday when the rates bills arrived. Yeah, I can’t pay them. I have no idea how we’re going to work that one out.

Anyway, that’s what’s happening for me right now. It’s a little bit stressful.

Funnily enough good nutrition and regular exercise are paramount in helping me get through this situation. Which feeds right into my desperate new years hankerings to set goals. Yay!

I want to get serious about this exercise stuff. Not because lose weight, get smaller blah, blah, blah, but because I really want to reduce the pain I experience. I want to be stronger, more flexible and have more stamina.

Why?

Just off the subject – that why is so important to ask. Our intentions are this an incredible driving force. Asking ourselves why, why is it that we want this, is a powerful tool for finding motivation.

So why? I have this plan to become wealthy, or at least wealthier, and I would really like to enjoy that. And when I think about enjoying that I mostly think about travelling to far away places and wandering around looking at pretty stuff. Places like Peru and Germany and the parts of Australia I haven’t been too yet. There’s a lot to see and do and I’d like to be able to do it without collapsing with fatigue.

I want to be fitter. I want to be stronger. I want a whole lot less pain in my back, which translates into stronger, firmer core muscles.

My plan involves starting slowly and building a habit of regular exercise and movement and see what changes that brings. From there add different exercises to meet my specific goals, such as strengthening core muscles.

I’m keeping a record of movement. I did wonder if that was going to be triggering for me (you know the whole, oh god I missed a day, that’s it I’ve ruined my chances, I needn’t even bother exercising ever again because I’m such a huge failure kind of thing) but I’ve missed one day so far and I’m actually pretty OK with it. The idea is to measure what I’m doing so I can measure the effect it has. It just feels more relaxed.

I also bought a pedometer. Apparently 10,000 steps in a day qualifies a person as active. My first day, I did 670 steps. Admittedly that was in the midst of the hottest day in recorded history where I was practically draped over the air conditioner for most of the day, but it was still fairly confronting to realise I don’t move nearly as much as I thought I did.

The last couple of days I’ve averaged 5 – 6,000 steps.

Again it’s not something I feel bad about. I actually feel really positive. There’s lots of room for improvement.

I got to have new years resolution that’s taking care of my health and at the same time stick with my HAES goals. Awesome.

Did you make new  years resolutions? What were they?