Lately I’ve been feeling alternatively very happy and very overwhelmed. Which feeling is predominant in any given day appears to be decided simply by my attitude. If I’m feeling stressed then I worry. If I’m feeling in control I feel happy and excited. In both cases I’m usually visualising – thinking about what might happen […]
Day 92: Physical Well Being Is Important
One of the real issues I’m having at the moment is how I feel physically. I think I’m fairly resigned to the fact that I’m fat. I know that many people would say “diet, diet, diet” but I don’t believe it’s really that simple. Fat or not aside, I do think that taking care of […]
Day 91: Dude, Whatever!
I’ve been so concerned about doing nothing but I actually am feeling a little better now. I’m still overwhelmed. Still struggling to find a path toward what I want but at the end of the day I am taking steps toward what I want. If it’s not in exactly the way I’d hoped, well, dude […]
Day 90: Scared Two
Still scared. Still struggling to cope with just the demands of my job let alone all the other things going on. Basically I’ve checked out and don’t want to play any more. It’s all a bit concerning.
Day 89: Scared
It’s all just too much for me. I feel overwhelmed and generally unable to cope. So instead of doing anything I curled up on the couch and read a book.
Day 88: Time Is Running Away
I realise it’s important to stay positive, to focus on the outcome and believe that it will work out. That’s the whole premise of what I’m trying to achieve here. But damn it feels like the days are racing away and little to nothing is actually happening. I also know the only reason I feel […]
Day 87: Australia Day
Today was Australia Day, a day of national celebration of all things Aussie. Sadly I’m a Kiwi (from New Zealand) so Australia Day doesn’t mean much more to me than a day off. Which I’m entirely grateful for. I did some cleaning and took my daughter driving (she’s a learner) and got rid of some […]
Day 86: Summer In Australia
Australia is a great place; wild, untamed and so beautiful. It also happens to be hot. Really, really hot. Today some guy smashed his van into a power pole just outside where I work and managed to take out the power in the whole building. Not all of it, just the part that runs the […]
Day 85: A Day Off
see more Lolcats and funny pictures I decided that, given my state of mind, a day off would be a good thing. So, I took the day to do as little as possible which was just as well as it was very hot. It’s hard to think when it’s hot like that. I did some […]
Day 84: What’s Next?
After weeks of keyword research I’ve finally finished and now I’m rather unmotivated. I know the next steps … I have them written down. I just feel like I’m getting nowhere, which is ironic having just finished the task. I see the days marching past and I feel overwhelmed and unable to cope. I doubt […]